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It's 1.25 AM..... Gotta speak up my mind... :P

OK.. I've been trying not to be emo or sad this whole day..
I think it kinda worked.. Especially after watching that TV episodes.... It kinda made my day.... :)
Anyways, been calling my bestie... She said she is fine.... Glad to know that ... *sigh...
Btw, actually I'm tired now... Not in the mood to update, but I noticed one thing...
I've been scrolling down and reading my old blog posts...
They were funny (in a way) and sad (in a way).... But, most of all, they're full of ME! :)
At least of me that is cheerful, sarcastic and happy..
Yes, there were sad moments, but mostly, I was content and happy :))

Now, I'm mostly emo, stressed and full of worry....

I MISS MY OLD ME!
I MISS BEING THE OLD ME!!!!!!

Yes, I noticed that! O.O

Back to the topic, I miss the old me who is more hardworking and yet, happy and not stressed..
Now, I'm stressed, emoing, zoning out in class and feeling so down...
I think all these problems are wearing me down... It made me lose interest in everything...
I think it is also due to the fact that my bestie is having a problem too... So, it kinda brings me down too..
Things are not as simple as it used to be... :(
Things are messier... More complicated..
All because of that girl.... Haish.... SHE IS ONE HELL OF A TROUBLEMAKER...
Were there any problems before she came? NO
Were there any love hate relationship before she came? NO

Not to add, that person... that betrayer and his lame excuses.....
Anyways, hate them to the core....



P.S. Trust is earned, not given... Same as respect.... Once is forgiven, twice is regret, thrice is no more... In this case, once is regret, twice is enough, thrice.... YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW YOU BETRAYER!!!!!!!!

...Getting Harder To Breathe @ 1:25:00 AM...

betrayal....

I've faced this problem before... I am familiar with the word... Been there before.... So, you might wondering what am I talking about...

BETRAYAL I've faced this before... But, the problem is I never thought I have to experience the same problem here....
Imagine... Being hurt.... twice by the same person... I am not the one that the person hurt, but he hurt my best friend... That is enough to hurt me.... That is enough to make my blood boils and make me pissed and mad... This time is unforgivable...
Sorry to say but it makes you look STUPID AND DUMB in my eyes... Your reasons are silly and so ridiculous...
All I want to say is you are a complete ASSHOLE in my eyes now......
We all trusted you... You earned trust, not given trust.....
For now, I am waiting for you to face us....
I am pissed, hurt and definitely disappointed.....

...Getting Harder To Breathe @ 8:21:00 PM...

I do care... and I feel your pain...

There are times when I seem to want to forget it all...
I don't want you to get hurt again..
After all, you're my best friend..
I care deeply about you..
When you shed a tear, when you gave me that sad smile, when your face looks gloomy and your heart fell apart.... I felt it too..
I may not be in your situation, I may not understand fully, I may not know it all, but I feel sad too...
I want to erase all that sad memories in your mind and just entertain you all day long, seeing you happy makes me happy too..
But, I really hope that you will not feel that heartbreak anymore...
I don't want you to feel hurt and crushed anymore....


You know, sometimes this song always make me feel sad, but at the end... It's a good song after all... :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ShlE-xobyw&ob=av2e

...Getting Harder To Breathe @ 7:58:00 PM...

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